A sinking feeling in pit of my stomach

hello,

"A sinking feeling in pit of my stomach" ......Im afraid, in the state of uneasiness and apprehended...

An 'unanswerable arguments' bemusing me...Actually, why i'm living? wht makes me happy? wht i wanted to be?? wht i'll be?? wht i hve been made for?? where is my way ??? where i wnt to go??? lot's of questions and my quest to answer them pondering me. I'm totally perplexed and so much engrossed in this thoughts tht i m unable to concentrate on my work. I firmly feel the same state of mind comes in the life of everyone ; where u find 'effete' to yourself to respond, But the one who encounter this and get some motive in life will make a difference. I think, one who has predecided goal/and aspiration to accomplish those goals would be most happiest person.

I don't knw the work which makes me happy... probably music or study or sports or reading ....????? whether i want to be music composer??? or A hotshot Investment banker ??? or A novel writer ??? or something else....Really i m fatigue of thinking abt the 'one thing' * (i believe everyone has one quality exceptionally well in him/her) i already search it lot ....but still no reply frm my soul....

Omg!!!! im fagged out but but but there is still 'hope' inside me which drives me to look for it....and i believe that when i 'll find that motive of my life, i'll be different person.....

Bye

P.S: One thing: I strongly believe that God inculcate something good in everyone..and if one finds out the "one thing" in him/her ...the complete transformation will take place.

End of Era...

Heylo

i m appearing after lng time but sometimes i feel to write but circumstances doesn't allow me to do and sometime i don't want anyzzz....

Today i hve completed my second phase of education (almost other thn exams) ...It was "fantastic" ... i hve learn most in dis phase of my life...

Actually i still remeber d day 12 sept 2005 ,before beginning of college i prepared me mentally and buy new clothes had some accesories (lockets, thumb ring...) so tht i can be dude in my college....i ws engaged by preoccupied thought of going for AIEEE exam after joinning d clg and had d thought of leaving d clg after getting NIT's but u knw it was all vain .. i didn;t go anywhere even i forgot to take form of AIEEEE anyzzz "jo hota hai aache ke liye hee hota hai"...It was incredble experience!!! 

when today i ws leaving d clg bus and on the way i ws thinking tht definately im  going frm here as a winner...it's very true that i lost in every possible intellecual field ; such as Grades of Semester, E.D, Academic Awards, CAT (i ws desperate for it) extra currics... social field;  such as public relation, .............. but but but still i feeel i gain lot more which are heavy on all above fields;;;; i found very nice people around me (i always believe that it's relation that last long, nothing else matter...), i got excellent freinds ..dey are really caring, concerning, suggesting, helping..., i learned exceptionally during my journey believe me!!! i learned lot and today when i looked up to this whole college era i found very sure to myself about one thing that this acheivements which i hve frm my college 'll make me Successful, Bright, Smart, Mature and a paragon . Though it's sad but true that i didn't do any remarkable during college but soon i'll shape myself well in every possible fields which i can.

See i'll not make my posts so long because of that i'll pack up today . Though exam time is going on and hve to do lot of pain taking work but still i'll write..

Bye

jiyo aur jeene do

heylo 

oh ho !!! nowadyzz im working like P.M of india frm last 3-4 dyz i hardly manage to sleep 5-6 hr sometimes i feel happy abt dis (but i knw dis is wrong i should sleep at least 6 hr in a day)..

Last weeek ws gr88 v went to Ujjain, it was all fun ........Actually v started our journey at 12 A.M and finish it next day 11 a.m, whole night driving followed by "bhasma aarti" at maha kal temple and thn best of best ISKON, i simply love d ambience of iskon .......sometimes after going to dis type of temple i feel the importance and existence of GOD and definately how can v miss Prayer if it's about God .....i hve very salient thoughts about Prayer definately i need separate heading for that so i 'll come abt it in my next post. Well apart frm masti it's also about work, nowadays working cool not upto d mark but still better than before ten days.

College on d verge of End ...so dis feeling makes me emotional nowadyzz. Believe me it's too tough to leave d ppl wid whom u share each and almost every good-bad moment of teenage (4 years) . This is life ; no end, no stoppage , new people , new work; after regular interval of time ; dis i believe, planned strategy of God to make us strong and accept d change. It's hard for me to leave college let's see "abhi picture baki hai maire dost".

Before packing up i want to mention one life which nowadyzz im feeling very strongly"Life can only b understood BACKWARD but 2 be live FORWARD.......

Sayonara

It's long time since i write, well when i started d blog i never expect for comment or follower bt after two three post i ws expecting ppl to comment on my post (it's probably human nature). Mainly dis ws d reason y i ws far frm blog ..... 

My condition; pathethic yaar im pissed off, im frustated (i knw im d one who talks abt cogito ergo sum) i don't hve much work to do in life, no ppl around who can force me and explain me not to waste my time. Sometimes i feel sad about myself tht i don't hve single freind or crony around me who can tell me; dude! ur not made for dis type of time pass, one who can command me ; hey yaar just go n study or do something constructive ....... no body who can show confidence in me ; like ur d one who is set for nice place. Oh gosh!!! i feel sad, my determination in shaking im finding myself weak (in terms of determination) wht happen to me??? i need somebody......... why ??? why?? why??? probably dis is d reason y im nettled.

I wnt to be an honest, i don't hve much ppl for me (now im feeling this) im an unaccompained guy. 

But but but now i wnt to change everything frm now on wards i'm not goin to waste much more time on time pass activity,i 'll set plan for me atleast for next 2 months, i would really happy if i 'll go for the things which i desperately wnt in my life definately with fresh new energy and new determination i'' ll do work according to plan.

Arpan Maheshwari

P.S : i don't knw how long dis determination 'll goin to survive??

discovering d solution for insurmountable obstacle

It's almost a week i ws far frm d blog, nowadyz in clg some of my colleagues pester be by saying go n write blog n blah blah blah actually it was related to our final year project report and i gainsay them to search the matter for it thn all tht happend.

Lst week lots of fun happened, actually me n my freind arrange  party(surprise) for our common freind, thn lst nite i ws at discotheque , i danced really hard so much hard tht my legs n thighs still paining.I finish my another book BRIDGET JONES'S DIARY ,it ws amusing now i can erased one more book name frm my list, soon i 'll read we the living.

Before starting anything i wnt to say one thing IT'S NOT NECESSARY THAT EVERY COACH MUST BE A GOOD PLAYER, i knw dis seeming quite confusing bt as i move for my post dis line would be clear.

Actually i feel that i learned lot from my lst four years it teaches me the way which leads me towards accomplishment of my goal though im nt successful yet bt still i feel, It can sometimes seem like an insurmountable obstacle to get where u feel tht u need to be. Each day is a new day, and these things take time, so make sure that you take things one day at a time. That being said, there are few things you can do to make sure that you ar headed down the right path when it comes to feeling good about yourself and your life in general.

Narrow Your Focus

What do you really want? Focus on that and make sure that you are clear about what you want. Set goals and let nothing get in the way of achieving these goals. There is no worse feeling than getting close to getting what you want and feeling like you could have done something more. So, reign in your desires and get clear about what you want.

Surround Yourself with Positivity

Eliminate negative people from your life. They are impeding you and will only serve to make things worse for you over time. Surround yourself with positive people who actually care about you, your well-being, and your goals. Positive people have a profound impact on the way we carry ourselves, which is why it’s so important to surround ourselves with positive people.

Don’t Let Anyone Bring You Down

It’s easy for unhappy people to bring you down to their level, so don’t let them do it—no matter what. It can be very easy to let someone in who’s seemingly innocuous, only to find out they want to bring you out of your positive bubble and into their world of negativity. Don’t let them, you have the power to say no.

Always Be Yourself (although these would be toughest of all n even i feel i balled up dis point in my life)

Don’t change or adjust yourself for others, this will only make you unhappy later. There are plenty of people out there who will like for exactly who you are and for no other reason than that. This advice is not cliché—it’s genuine.

Never Give Up (and dis is wht i hve)

Many people fail to succeed because they give up right before things are about to turn around. The secret is to never give up, especially when it comes to something you really want. Once the goals are set, do everything you can to make them part of your reality. Don’t give up on anything you want to do—keep going until you can’t go anymore.

P.S : I feel im not successful because im not up to d mark with d above points. 

MBA degree – Neither necessary for success nor guarantees success.....

hello

There was a call on my phone..(actually i set alarm of 6 A.M.), to inactive it, the most cumbersome activity of d day. Well tht ws preamble of today's story actually i set it at 6 a.m. so tht i can go to 'gym'...physical fitness one of the top five work of my wishlist still unable to defend it. Same clg stuff no study, no learning only time pass. Sometimes i think how can i waste so much time in unavailing deeds ???? esp. at the age which is structured by ppl to do hard work and to learn. And day ends with the dinner party by d freind(the recent placed guy" old post") now it's already 2.30 a.m. n now im no longer in mood to sleep (wanna to go gym by morning 6 ). Well other thn some written work hve some reading stuff(bridget jones diary).

My last post ws kind of cerebration and now with different taste abt an M.B.A. Before strtng nething i wnt to clear :

1. I m still fighhtin for good B-School.

2. I m serious about my MBA degree.

Let's talk abt MBA degree ....(As business mind concern)

If MBA degree were necessary for success then we would not have Sam Walton, Bill Gates and Dhirubhais of the world. If MBA degree is to guarantee success then all ppl with MBA degrees should ve been successful.

However, that is not the case. Then if not MBA thn frm where dis ppl come ...

dey r d ppl who buy goods and services.

dey r d ppl who sell goods and services.

dey r d ppl who are our colleagues.

dey r d ppl who are our bosses.

dey r d ppl who are our competitors.

dey r d ppl who are our family and freinds.

World is made up of ppl.

The ability to deal with and relate to ppl is the most imp differntiating factor. People ability is the key to success.

When u r a boss, the ability to pick up the right kind of team.

When u r a strategist, the ability to go into the plans of the competition.

When u r a sales person, the ability to read the pulse of the customer.

When u r a colleague, the ability to collaborate to effect synergies.

When u r a freind, the ability to listen and empathize.

It is critical to be able to operate at various levels depending on whom you are dealing with. BE A PEOPLE PERSON.

 

I knw some may come wid d thoughts if im interested in an MBA degree thn y im sounding negative for it. But wht i feel MBA teaches u new perspecives on life, Better organisation and management capabilities, Ability to handle complex data for decision making.

Simply i cn say MBA degree in the hands of an already smart person, working as an additional tool, that will leads to successful businessperson.

That's all for today 

SAYONARA

ARPAN MAHESHWARI

P.S

-Success is always a relative terms it totally depends on one's perception to setup a reference.

 

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COGITO ERGO SUM - Renny Descartes

Hello 

As i told tht i'll come wid an intersting post n offcourse wid my result. First come on at result side, it was good enough i managed to get passed wid decent percentage. But definately d announcement process of rslt cause my mind to work disordly. Now i'm fatigued, today i did nthng mentionable jst strt d day wid net web , afterwards rambling for coffee n now literally nt strong enough to go for dinner, indeed i decide to spent some time in writting ......

Anyways let me come out ot the result fever. It's time to discuss the title of the post "Cogito Ergo Sum", it simply means "I think therefore i am." it seems to small lines bt definately it's vry deep in meaning.

I firmly believe that much of our life happens between our two eyes. Go to sleep; the world vanishes.Open the eyes;there is the entire world to see. Expand knowledge; the world will enlarge for u, and for the constrain mind with ritual, prejudice, vanity etc; the world becomes a difficult place even to breath.  When u fall in love; the world becomes a lovelier place (u wnt to see everything wid luv,heart). When u hate somebody; ur all emotion see d world wid detestable eyes and deeds demands action. Let me talk abt winning n losing....

Win something(I) have wait for;the world shows excellent promise to u. Lose something (I) have; the world is doomed. Go to a place where (I) want to be; world is heaven. Get stuck up in a wrong place; world is hell. 

When I'm d boss, I m d power. When im subordinate, power is bullshit.  When i m a child, i wnt parents to understand. When i m parent, i wish children understood me. 

Basically what i wnt to speak is I see myself in terms of what i can be. Doesn't matter if other judge me by wht i m. I see myself through my eyes, i see others also through my eyes. I remeber what i speak, not what others speak because, at the very least, there is an "I" who is doing the thinking. Now i can simply say

" The world begins when i wake up from sleep. The world shuts when i go to sleep"

or in other words i can explain the phenomena as what u actually allowed to think urself to go or not to go in a certain way, no body can force u, no body can convince u, until and unless it's u who want to change d way.

I hope im coherent with my thoughts, hopefully it may makes sense simply i wnt to end up with those line it's ABSOLUTELY I," I think therefore i am".

In between i got one good news, one of my freind get placement, in this recession time to get a job is  tough deal. Well, congos frm my side to him, well done buddy. All i can say he is golden enough to get the oppurtunity. Actually i ended with different note. That's all for now....

Sayonara 

Arpan Maheshwari